It seems I want to go somewhere

Iose's wise words from yesterday: "there is so much in the primary series". I have not been able to stop thinking about it.  It resonates in a profound way.

For years I have been so kin on progressing, moving on, being more flexible, more flashy, showing off, etc.  Sometimes I feel I tame the beast (ego), but is illusion.

I have not surrendered at all. I thought I did, but I still crave the progress, the idea that I am going somewhere.  Where?

So today I practiced with this in mind, that there really is so much to learn on the primary series.  The samyama worked, it gave me a new appreciation for the series. I took my time and practice lasted two hours without my noticing.  Without forcing, just being with each pose I kind of found some enjoyment in it all, a certain level of poetry even in how the muscles relax, the tendons give way, the breath helps the flow, the movements can become graceful, and the exertions be tamed by deeper and slower intake of air.

Now I am not to get cocky on this either, one thing I know from yoga is that when things are rosy there is probably hell right around the corner, and is part of the story, there is really so much to learn.

Note on the new mat, I loved it.  My jump throughs delicious, what a lovely feeling to slide, to feel the flow of the legs as they go back rather than getting stuck on the rubber.