Was just abut to hit publish on my post about death when I noticed it is summer solstice.
Maybe I think about death on a day like this because I was born and raised in Argentina where toilettes flush in a different direction. And that is just the first of things that go in a different way. Si, asi es.
And I look at the places where I fool myself, where I don't live.
My master of ceremony is Buckowski:
Problem is, staying out of mediocrity involves naming this post too: Summer Solstice? I feel Charles slapping me in the face while he looks up my legs with pervert eyes.
I won't take up smoking or drinking but I might do that primary like it was the last one, ever.
Or not.
I am sick today, who am I kidding
Been sick for four days, again.
Is that friggin medication they give me once in a while
I will just keep it real.
Now the question is: What would have been a better title?
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Where that poem up there comes from:
Maybe I think about death on a day like this because I was born and raised in Argentina where toilettes flush in a different direction. And that is just the first of things that go in a different way. Si, asi es.
And I look at the places where I fool myself, where I don't live.
My master of ceremony is Buckowski:
"Invent yourself and then reinvent yourself,
don't swim in the same slough,
invent yourself and then reinvent yourself
and
stay out of the clutches of mediocrity"
Problem is, staying out of mediocrity involves naming this post too: Summer Solstice? I feel Charles slapping me in the face while he looks up my legs with pervert eyes.
"be self-taught.
and reinvent your life because you must;
it is your life and
its history
and the present
belong only to you"
Or not.
I am sick today, who am I kidding
Been sick for four days, again.
Is that friggin medication they give me once in a while
I will just keep it real.
Now the question is: What would have been a better title?
----
Where that poem up there comes from:
i would have never penned you for a bukowski fan
ReplyDeleteThanks Bindy, I am disturbingly flattered by that. James got me into it, and now I realize, he is a yogi
ReplyDeleteSorry your Sick Claudia, hope it clears up soon. Yeah Bukowski, you never cease to astound me with your openness. Bukowski a yogi, one of those old dangerous cynical/idealistic ones from an age past, OK I can see that. I read him a bit in my traveling days hitching around the south and midwest, stayed with some Carnie's for a bit and it was like inhabiting in one of his poems. I should read him again, can't remember a single line just that ugly/beautiful agonising atmosphere of his. Saw James' post on books this morning, lucky you getting to explore his book shelf, going to put some of those on my ipad.
ReplyDeleteYes, that kind of yogi, also brutally honest, and stern observer, not a detail escapes him. His poetry about death, him dying, for real, had me in an almost panic attack...
ReplyDeleteJames is a great book curator, has me all interested in new authors.... Be warned the mighty force of him sharing about honest and raw books... There is a practice to attend to!!! Ja ja
Yes I saw that, a whole plot just for the last line....Oh god I think I did the very same thing a week or two ago, what book was that.... and what was the line that I thought so great, memory's going.
ReplyDeleteOk, now I wanna know, not the story just the book, what was it? It'll come back to you...
ReplyDeleteSorry you are not feeling well, Claudia. Hope you get better soon. Bukowski sounds very interesting. I should check him out.
ReplyDeleteThanks Nobel, yes he is really interesting... Come to think of it I just realized I misspelled his name... Oh well.... How are your Garcia Marquez explorations going?
ReplyDeletedear Claudia
ReplyDeletei hope you feel better. i like that poem; it rings so true, specially for those of us in far lands.
by the way, i think you are right that i can post as annonymous, but the trick is to do so from the start, by scrolling down to "annonymous"; otherwise, one goes to an infinite loop of credential checking and cannot comment.
cheers,
Arturo
Arturo, thank you! :-)
ReplyDeletethat infinite loop you speak of, I also go through whenever I publish from the Ipad, I think it takes like 3 clicks... may be a compatibility issue with other systems...