Last Saturday, after 42 days of antibiotics my body could not do it anymore so I stopped. I began feeling better the first day, then did 1.15 hrs of yoga the second.
Then again felt out of energy for two whole days, after which I was able to practice a full 1.5 hour of asana, of course I did not do the whole primary series because my breathing is slow, very slow, to accommodate for fatigue, yet it felt good.
But the day after that was not good at all.
I called the doctor, was hoping maybe these were just the signs of how recovery happens, but it was not to be. So I am back in antibiotics, in the cave, away from the sun and back to just prayer.
The Lyme disease persists...
Spent the whole day praying yesterday. I had never done that before, I felt for Steve Jobs and for all of the discomforts our planet is going through, I also felt elevated and happy, prayed to the Divine Mother and with the Japanese Mantra that sounds so beautiful (nammyohorengekyo).
At least I know, I might get panic attacks, I might not be able to move, I might get a reaction to the antibiotics again, I might even be able to insert some asana, who knows?. Guess being prepared makes me less fear-full.
One thing I do notice out of all of this is how close death lurks all around us, and how important it is to get our priorities in line, what we really love to do, and do it.
Then again felt out of energy for two whole days, after which I was able to practice a full 1.5 hour of asana, of course I did not do the whole primary series because my breathing is slow, very slow, to accommodate for fatigue, yet it felt good.
But the day after that was not good at all.
I called the doctor, was hoping maybe these were just the signs of how recovery happens, but it was not to be. So I am back in antibiotics, in the cave, away from the sun and back to just prayer.
The Lyme disease persists...
Spent the whole day praying yesterday. I had never done that before, I felt for Steve Jobs and for all of the discomforts our planet is going through, I also felt elevated and happy, prayed to the Divine Mother and with the Japanese Mantra that sounds so beautiful (nammyohorengekyo).
At least I know, I might get panic attacks, I might not be able to move, I might get a reaction to the antibiotics again, I might even be able to insert some asana, who knows?. Guess being prepared makes me less fear-full.
One thing I do notice out of all of this is how close death lurks all around us, and how important it is to get our priorities in line, what we really love to do, and do it.
Thank you for this blog. Thank you for sharing your struggles and joys.
ReplyDelete:-) Joe
ReplyDeletehang in there Claudia, rest assured that you are not alone, your cyber shala mates are breathing and praying with you x I really admire your gutsyness
ReplyDeleteClaudia, you are amazing. So gracious and courageous. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteMin, Carol, thank you! you know I actually feel the positive energy, I feel loved, thank you!, I know I will heal, just patience for now.
ReplyDeleteReally appreciate the good wishes guys!!! :-) :-) :-)
Feel better, Claudia! Thanks for your wisdom!
ReplyDeleteThank you Brooks, and thanks for the pointer towards Intent. Enjoyed being a part of that, I appreciate your generosity! :-)
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