Aug 31, 2011

I Could Not Resist Reading Her Secret Journal

Browsing the pages of "Carried by a Promise" is like reading a secret journal you found in a woman's bedroom and knew you were not supposed to open, yet could not resist. Once you open it you have to keep turning the pages.

It is written in journal form with dates (or seasons), and descriptions of what was happening to Mary-Ann around each of those journal-entry times. It covers the period from the Spring of 1977 to December of 1995.

Mary-Ann, now Swami Radhananda
In very plain language it recounts her going from a being regular visitor at the Yasodhara Ashram in British Columbia, to the strengthening of her relationship to Swami Radha -a woman who left everything behind in her 40's after having a vision in a meditation from Sivananda in which he told her to come to him in India,  and ended up creating the ashram), continuing through the deterioration of her marriage, the growth of her children and eventually all the way to becoming the president of the Ashram.  A position she still holds.

The Temple of Light at the Ashram, took over 20 years
to become a reality but it was truly built on faith!
Going through her days, Mary-Ann asks lots of questions of herself and we find ourselves wondering what we would do too. How would we pay the mortgage with the alcoholic husband burning the sofa? How could we communicate peacefully with a man that does not want to hear it, yet coming from spirit?

Radha communicates to Mary-Ann through letters as she is trying to put her affairs in order and to have more time to dedicate to spiritual pursuits, and she is always elated to receive them. One time the Guru sends her a section of one of her new books in which she writes:

"The major problem facing woman is to develop her emotional independence. She can only do this by recognizing her Divine nature"

She feels encouraged by this, she says: "her response confirms that she knows me and that her help does not stop when the workshops end".  The 'encouragement' she talks about has to do with how it was imperative for Mary Ann to clarify why she in the situation she was in and to empower herself.

We get glimpses of the work her guru did with others, the tones and shades of her effectiveness, after one of these workshops she writes:

"In the workshop I listen and concentrate. What are people really saying? I watch how Mataji (how she called Swami Radha) gets to the underlying issues, how she is gentle with some, and cuts through and is very direct with others"

I, myself experienced something very similar when in 2003 I ventured into British Columbia to the Ashram and took a five day workshop called "Polishing the Diamond" (the diamond being the light inside of all of us).  It was a feast to see Marie Anne, by then Swami Radhananda (and the author of the book), in full power , talking to different people in very different ways.

How could she not? After all, we all did have very different issues, for example: A woman had lost her business, another one was considering separating from her husband for a 3 month yoga development course, another one was facing death, I was facing the anxiety of being in my mid-30s and not having children...  Different reactions and tones of voices were needed indeed!

Mary-Ann practices the "Divine Light Invocation" constantly, as do all people in the ashram and puts all her issues "in the light".  Throughout her book we see her learn to live on faith, and how destiny re-arranges itself to bring about the spiritual transformation she yearns for.

She faces tremendous difficulties when she is finally ready (children grown up, divorce in place, house sold, etc.) to come live in the ashram and it becomes clear that Swami Radha is choosing her to be the one at the helm, for example:
  • A current interim-Swami director who refuses to speak with her and withholds information
  • A group of males who repeat what she says during a meeting and take credit for it without even noticing it was her idea
  • People in administration levels not wanting to cooperate with her knowing anything about how things work
  • Having to discipline a swami who had entered into romantic relationships with a student
And more.  

Instead of "running to mummy" as I feel I would have, she chooses instead to put all issues in the light and give them time.  Having been able to eally listen to Radha and really learn from her she understand that people grow at their own pace, that they need time to process, they need straight talk, yes, but they also need space.  

She also makes it a point of showing how efficiently she used her one-on-one time with Radha.

The book shows the tremendous spiritual transformation that a life dedicated to yoga brings about.

I could relate to it a LOT MORE than, say, Autobiography of a Yogi, which, although a good read, provided zero direct connection or elements where I could relate directly. 

Mary-Ann, now Swami Radhananda, is a woman living in our times, in North America, with issues that we know deeply and that affect us all.

Her candid telling helps us connect with her personal story, relate intimately, and be guided, almost in an invisible form towards transformation, page by page.

May the message of the Light that Radhananda spreads through her personal account reach all that are ready to hear!

While I was visiting the Yasodhara Ashram in British Columbia I also learned the Divine Mother Prayer which you can read and see a video of here.

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Aug 29, 2011

The River Flooded Me So I Would Get Out Of Bed!

The biggest gift and source of despair in being sick is that I HAVE to stop.

I can write the "to-do" list but there is no way it is making it into a full-formed written "schedule". I can plan 6 blog-spots in the morning, but it's very unlikely they will see themselves in draft form for a while.  I can make the bed, but there is no way I will be able to sweep the floor too.

I just collapse, my heart beats too fast, I get shortness of breath, my joints ache and I fall into a spiral of depression and despair that only James, with his love and humour, knows how to get me out of.
Day #9 of Antibiotics.  The picture is not out of focus
that is actually how I feel
Some days I feel like reading.  And off I go through those pages! Devouring beautiful poems, diary entries, feminine accounts of dealing with difficulties, only to realize, as I finish a book in one sitting, that I over-did it. Aaaaggg screams my life force.

And so the days keep passing, and the level of antibiotics on the bottle keeps lowering its tide, and I do a lot less than I ever did in my whole life.  And in the stopping...

I have found some blessings:

The most helpful of all has been a prayer I had long forgotten. It is said that if one performs this prayer for 40 days then a miracle will happen.  Strangely enough it is not the miracle that drives my practice. Not this time, because I cannot even perform it right (standing up).  So I move slowly and do it in my head, eyes closed, blanket to my nose.

And the Divine shows up in my life, like she always does when called upon.

Yesterday, on day 9 of the antibiotics, (out of 21) I had a little more energy. I was able to have my cocktail of healing pills and stay in the living-room until 9:16 AM. An accomplishment! I had not been able to pass the 8:20 mark before.

And then, in the way that miracles happen, Mother Hudson River rose  and the streets of my little village got flooded.  Everyone was fine and nobody was hurt.

Main Street, the Gazebo can be seen in the distance.
There was a guy in a yellow kayak paddling around it and having
the time of his life.
The river rose up Main street, flooded and washed the streets with fresh water, prana-filled air, and came all the way to my window, flooding our little garden.

Our garden looked more like a pond
In a slow and sweet way, as a mother would to a baby, the river nudged me into coming down: "Let's go see!" said James. And so we did, and I stayed out longer and I breathed the fresh air and I felt the water of the river and I felt its power and its blessing.
Mother River Coming to my doorsteps, urging me to breathe
her energy-filled air and wash away the sorrows
And this of course was a miracle. A reminder of how by slowing down we can hear the voice of the guru that is NOT within, but rather all around, and that is ALWAYS talking to us. For example: flooding waters to our bed so we will stand up and take in the fresh air, whispering into our ears: "feel good", "come to me!", "know that you are a blessed child", "know that I am looking after you".

If only we are willing to listen and slow down.

And so this "guru" that everyone tells me is inside (you know?: "all paths lead to find the guru inside you", "the real guru is the one in you", and all that talk), I found out this weekend, is actually all around.

IT PERMEATES EVERYTHING

And this is how I know:
  • I know YOU are there when after the storm I feel it would be nice to have electricity again so I can cook something and the light bulb on the lamp behind me turns up again. At that exact moment.
  • I know YOU are there when I miss my brother and, right then, I see an e-mail from him, displaying in pictures his latest furniture creation
My brother is an artist of carpentry among many other talents
  • I know YOU are guiding me when I am suddenly able to let go of envy of others who write about yoga better than me, and notice that in fact there is no competition at all, but only connection to YOU
  • I know YOU are there when you give me enough energy to think and even write a post that makes me proud, and only on day 5 of antibiotics, even if it costs me the whole rest of the day in a near comma.
  • Or when YOU direct me to read an extraordinary book that reconnects me with your light so quickly, so seamlessly, so elegantly, so powerfully.
  • I know YOU are there when I read the message boards in open forums for James posts' and I see how much anger there is out there, how much projection. How the lack of connection to YOU is so obvious, how many people need to be prayed for, put in the light, experience the miracle of seeing themselves anew, and drop the old and stagnant hatred that does not serve them.
  • I see YOU in the bravery of those who are sicker than me, finding gifts in situations that are much harder than mine, cause after all, I know I am not so bad, even if I died, I have found YOU! 
  • I see YOU when James tells me to shhh and relax and breathe and go to sleep, and then I see him bow in prayer, and I know the love in him is so deep, so real. I am so blessed.
  • I feel YOUR love in his embrace, protection, laughter, inspiration.
  • I know YOU are there as trickster when I start working on dreams again and suddenly I listen to Clarissa's fourth chapter of "The Dangerous Old Woman", and she nudges me into paying attention to dreams (again!) in a naughty, feminine way, a way that comes from the ovarios mujer! From the dirty talks that happen among women and that make us laugh until our bellies hurt a little and our hearts heal with warmth.
  • I know YOU are there when I want to eat something and the supermarket has JUST finished baking it. Hm. What are the odds?
I see YOU are there, all permeating, in every detail, in every breath If only I slow down to notice!


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Aug 28, 2011

Sunday New Blog Times: See My Book In Chinese!

Have you seen the 101 Revolutionary Manifesto on ways to take control of our healt? Christina, an ashtangi and MD  wishes it would be placed in all waiting rooms for doctor offices, I agree!!!

8 tiny things that stopped suicides, I love number one!

In a nutshell the International Association for Yoga Teraphy has received 30K in grants.  Great news, only problem I see is that the whole thing is basically run by MD, PhDs, and people whom, it seems would like to turn yoga into a college degree that would in turn cost 30K a year (the way things are going). I hope and pray that the funds are well used.

This is why I think a Yoga Therapy Degree should be EARNED, and NOT Paid for

32 Steps to a Slow-Built, Solid, and Thriving Yoga Theraphy Practice

So Excited to have my book in a Chinese Language Catalogue!

75% of People DO NOT notice huge changes right in front of them, see this, would YOU have noticed it?

Roseanne returns from the YogaFest in Toronto and shares on her pannel on blogging on yoga, her lack of time to blog from the event, and "... It was disturbing, we can practice together, talk, feel like we're connecting on some level. But there is still a disconnect between what happens in practice and what ahppens in the world"


And for the VIDEO OF THE WEEK, check out this adorable one minute meditation instruction animation






Last Sunday New Blog Times: Ops! Guess I am NOT a Supple Athlete






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Aug 26, 2011

The 7 Most Fascinating Yoga Books I Read This Summer

What if Patanjali is wrong? I wondered a few months ago. Not that he was, but nevertheless it is always good to expand our views on yoga. These are books that I have read over the summer and that are transforming my understanding of the science of yoga, from every single point of view, I hope they do the same for you:

CARRIED BY A PROMISE: In the Fall of 2003 I visited the Yasodhara Ashram in British Columbia, learned their prayers, ate in silence, dedicated all to the Divine Energy. Some of that story can be read in the "About" page of the blog.  The experience changed my life and initiated me into yoga, no ceremony was necessary.

In 1995 Swami Radha passed into the light and Radhananda, the author of this book slowly transitioned into the presidency and has ever since been the head of the Ashram.

This book is filled with her diary entries and is so down to earth it takes you by surprise, especially the parts where you see that even in the high ranks of people who are spiritual (even initiated swamis) still get caught in threads of jealousy, withholding of information, projections and fights.

She is a true warrior of yoga that sorts through and learns also as she prepares to change her life completely leaving behind her grown children and selling her home. An inspiration.
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THE TEXTBOOK OF YOGA PSYCHOLOGYDon't let the price scare you, there are used versions for under $15 (which I can't link to, it seems).

The 1973 book tries to incorporate the rigidity and scholarly brevity of the yoga sutras into something a little more accessible to someone like, say, me, in this time and era:
"When the mind succeeds in seeing all external and internal motion within itself then it gains control over mental waves".

I knew yoga was controlling or stopping the mental waves but this book seems to go beyond, into more details.  Have not read it in full, will be reviewing it when I do.
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TEACHING YOGA: EXPLORING THE TEACHER STUDENT RELATIONSHIP: In my recent review of this book I called it "the book that every student and teacher of yoga MUST read".  


The reason becomes obvious as you read it, it presents examples drawn from Donna's extensive teaching experience at teacher trainings, workshops, overseas intensives, running studios etc., as well as all the difficult cases that have presented themselves to her and which she had to learn to deal with from a position of empowerment and professionalism.  


The 12 exercises given at the end of the book (only one of which has a proposed answer) are gems for a prospective teacher to analyze, think about, and come to productive conclusions of how one would proceed on a similar situation.
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FOUR CHAPTERS ON FREEDOM:  Reading over Satyananda's book I had to do a sort of double-take between my notes taken while taking the 20-hour Yoga Sutra workshop with Sirvatsa Ramaswami (A 35 year direct student of Krishnamacharya).


Some of the explanations, especially on chapter one are similar and as full and interesting.  There is of course one discrepancy which I seem to find only in Ramaswami (and Krishnamacharya;s interprettion), and that is on sutra 2.47 which, Ramaswami tells us, is where Krishnamacharya derived the concept of vinyasa.  But I guess that is not much of a surprise, not Iyengar, not this author, nor Maehle, nor any other scholar makes the connection, only Ramaswami through Krishnamacharya.


Beyond that point, on which I seem to be a little fixated I admit, the book is easy to read and has a wealth of metaphors to bring the points home.
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THE ART OF ADJUSTING:  I have written an extensive review about this heavy and rather expensive book everywhere and the reason why is because it is more than worth the price.


The adjustments described reflect on a decade of teacher training and are precise, beautiful and, well, they just entice you to roll the mat, grab a partner and explore.


Here is the full review in case you are interested. I will tell you right off that this was my favorite summer read and I still experience separation anxiety when I do not have it near.  That is how much I enjoy reading it.  Amazon may be out of stock but Ashtanga.com does have it and they are pretty reliable with quick shipment.  A treat for anyone focusing on deepening the understanding of the asanas of the primary series of Ashtanga, although, granted, the closing sequence is missing, maybe there will be another book.  And in case Cooper is reading, people have already been asking for "The Art of Adjusting the Intermediate Series", so we hope you get that message Brian!
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KUNDALINI YOGA FOR THE WEST:
I have a lot to say about this and although I am planning on writing a full review on the book I will tell you one thing I discovered.  The world of the yoga sutras is very male energy dominated, filled with instructions to be interpreted by gurus or scholars, and does not provide explicit and easy ways of reflection and exercises that can take us to clean up our own internal house to the point where we can actually make use of them.


THIS is the book that does that.  I know that the name kundalini scares a lot of people but this book is extremely down to earth and filled with suggestions that bring in something that is mostly missing from yoga in America, the Divine Mother, and her capacity to help us deal with minutia and daily issues in a way that will bring us closer to a state in which we can get to progress on the path of yoga.  I would go as far as to say that give the yoga sutras to someone and they may or not understand the path of yoga, but give this book and you will have some clear points of self-reflection that will help you eliminate the basic pains and turmoils of your life so you can create a solid foundation for the more advanced practices of yoga.


Radha studied with Sivananda (on of the most practical and effective gurus of the last century) directly and was initiated by him.  Her story is filled with her work with the "light" which is a term she uses constantly as a way for us to not identify so much with body and mind but rather grasp in a very practical way that we are NOT what we think we are.


I have owned the book since 2003, but I confess I can only take it in doses. Buy at your own risk, as you will discover things about you, by way of doing the exercises, that you may not want to know.
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FUNDAMENTALS OF YOGA: I came across this book while investigating a claim from Ramaswami where he says that this author warns again and again against the bad practice of forcing students into things like 108 sun salutations or hours of asanas or feasts of 100s of drop backs.  


I did not find such claims in this particular book but what I did find is another of those 70's books filled with clear interpretations of what it means, for example, to 'renounce the world' and how confused we all are on this idea.


The book led me and inspired me to write the story on my failed attempt, or fiasco, at renouncing the world and going to live in a solitary cabin.


Every chapter in the book teaches yoga in a very different light than the pragmatic and almost academic style that Ashtanga utilizes and it helped me open my mind to new ways of grasping what liberation may be really about.

AAAAAAND.... A BOOK ON PRE-ORDER:

Some books have not come up yet but I have already put a pre-order  so I can read them fresh off the oven:

HEALTH, HEALING AND BEYOND: YOGA AND THE LIVING TRADITION OF T. KRISHNAMACHARYA.  By T.K.V. Desikachar

It becomes available on September 13 but you can pre-order today.








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Aug 25, 2011

32 Steps To A Slow-Built, Solid, And Thriving Yoga Teraphy Practice

Ironically my journey into Yoga Therapy begins with case number ONE filed under: Myself.  I have Lyme disease, and I am studying it just as I feel it, just as I loose all energy and need to lay in bed and only write or think when I get 'windows' of energy.

Not only that, I am using yoga or not using it when it is impossible to use.  I know my case will not be valuable information for everyone, but I also know that some of it will be.  Nothing is clear cut, black or white, such is life.
May Ganesh remove obstacles so we can be
dedicated, grounded, true professionals, and channel the Divine
This disease, what I am going through, is how I believe, we, organically, and in a real way, become yogis that venture into the field of therapy. Perhaps just by being thrown directly into it by sickness, or maybe by feeling a strong call to the vocation.

I am also very clear that we will never be doctors, chiropractors, acupuncturists, psychologists, MSW, internists, oncologists, etc... Keeping it real and knowing our limitations, i.e.: where our knowledge ends, is critical.

Following my post from yesterday I have a new proposition on how to look at Yoga Therapy that yes, of course includes continuing education, just like with yoga, and preferably one that comes from the highest sources, from those that studied yoga with Krishnamacharya himself, but also patience, research, keeping journals, networking, building a team.

Sutra 3.36 is my mantra as I thread this new territory. Discriminating what is real from what is not and understanding our own limitations is the very foundation of being a yoga teacher of integrity. And that includes noticing when and if my own arrogance is taking the best out of me.

The title of Yoga Teraphist needs to be EARNED, not to paid for.  Paying is cheap, anyone can pay after saving for some time. There is nothing inherently wrong with taking courses and paying for them, but even after, just with a degree or certification, it means nothing in the field of healing.

Healing is a gift and as such it must be earned.

This is a 32 Step path I propose as an alternative to regulation that results in expensive module- classes leading to certifications, or worst, institutionalized college degrees that follow government regulations and drain prospective talented students of all moneys they may have saved to actually start practicing by using their talent.

Thw path I propose follows lineage, and involves slow-building, solid work, cooperation, and much reflection throughout years and years of dedicated practice.

1.- Vision and Foundation
Recognize that the field of Yoga Therapy requires a healthy, balanced, centered yoga teacher with a strong personal daily practice and deep understanding of yoga principles.  Embarking on such a new venture without a solid foundation is not advisable and frankly un-realistic.

On the vision front, having one is mandatory, not optional.  Given that Yoga Therapy is a new and exciting field, being clear as of where we want to be is not only necessary, is vital for the success of our endeavours. And yes, by vision I do mean vision boards, charts, papers that outline where we see ourselves in a year, two, five, twenty-five.

Knowing where we want to go (what kind of practice we want, where to practice, the type of cases we would like to attract, what type of work with would like to use Yoga Therapy on, what kind of monetary reward we would like to obtain, what kind of a professional community we would like to create, etc) has the power of giving us  direction as we take each step along the way.

I highly recommend reading this book (left: "Building Your Ideal Private Practice") which includes not just tips for theraphists but for anyone who is seriously and committed to serve in the world through a private practice.

In this case that would be through yoga, be it just by teaching or by extending into therapy.

2.-Having an Integral Vision of each Student
Have a willingness to treat students as individuals with whole lives. Get involved, get in there, learn about them, know what they need.

Yes, this goes beyond a regular yoga teaching requirement, but then again, not everyone will have the call to the vocation of Yoga Therapy. If you do, then getting involved, softly and in a respectful manner is important.

3.-Have strong and clear professional boundaries.  
You can go through the exercises outlined in the wonderful book "Teaching Yoga" just to test yourself and see how close to center you are or how off when it comes to dealing with difficult situations among teachers and students or teaches and patients (or would they be called clients?, I mean, in Yoga Theraphy?)

In a recent post in which I reviewed the book (which I coined: "The book that every student and teacher of yoga MUST read") you can get a taste for the difficult situations that can present themselves with clear and solid suggestions as of how to deal with them as well as cases that leave you reflecting and thinking.  Cases that pose a difficult position yet give no answers.  Wonderful exercises!

I find these to be exercises that cannot be hidden under a carpet, they need to be processed, discussed in groups, explored, analyzed.

4.-Patience
Be prepared to be patient and know that a practice of yoga therapy, just as the one of yoga is for a life time

5.-Build a wide network of professionals 
that you, the yoga teacher/therapists, knows personally, has regular meetings with, and can refer students to. This can be accomplished by following these suggested steps:
  • Get a notebook and fill the top of each page with the title of all professions that can help in the treatment of a yoga student (psychologist, psychiatrist, general medicine practitioner, internist, OBGYN, specialists in every area of medicine, counselors, etc, and then also alternative forms i.e.: massage therapy (different styles), acupuncture, reiki, aromatherapy, other yoga styles, and so on.
  • Network in the community of your residence, for example creating a monthly meeting of professionals to discuss and share notes and referrals. 
  • No names of students or patients/clients are ever named, the privacy of their identity is always respected, but the lessons learned can be shared.
  • Maintain professional relationships with every different person you know in each of their fields, keep updated, make an effort to stay in touch
  • Become a cool person, don't speak badly behind anyone's backs, make integrity and peace your center.  This will allow you to have better and more interactions, to learn more, everyone will beneft,
  • Make the meetings interesting, bring in cases, either current situations you are dealing with at the moment or something you read. Propose questions, engage conversation.
  • Place in the notebook, under each category, only the professionals that you know in your heart to be the best in the field 
  • Recommend them
  • This will create a community where all professionals benefit, recommend each other for good services and thrive while having happy, healed and satisfied students/patients/clients.
Patiently build a network
6.-Reaching Further
Extend this local network into a national network and eventually an international one. In time, of course.

7.-Continue your own education. Owning your Commitment to Education.
Do so with the best teachers in the field, the closest to Krishnamacharya the better, and also researching who are in the frontier of Yoga Therapy today, as we move away from the generation of Krishnamacharya and his teachers which, luckily for us, is not to happen for a while, but there will be new great Therapists emerging, keep them in mind, learn from them, meet them, network, share your cases, give somethng for free, keep them in high esteem. Develop relationships.

8.-Reading, Studying, Going to Conferences
Keep informed of developments in the field, attend conferences, discuss cases, situations. Who healed? how? why?

At the moment there are several organizations that publish and are interested in Yoga Therapy cases, and on the effects of yoga in healing. They are a good place to start and follow:
9.-Sharing Leanings
Write about your findings, keep a journal for private notes and share important findings with colleagues, in journals, wide-reaching blogs, newspapers, field magazines, or personal blogs

10.-Records
Maintain a flawless records of all interactions, recommendations, details, progress, and a description of what happened.

11.-De-Briefing
Take time for taking inventory. What was done correctly? What could be improved in the future?

12.-Keeping the Yogi Healthy and the personal practice thriving
Ensure that your own yoga practice is well tended to, as well as your spirit, and emotional being.  We need to make sure that we are coming from a position of presence, power, peace, discrimination.

13.-Volunteering to Both Build the Practice and Learn
In the beginning it might help to volunteer in hospitals, hospices, prisons, and learn about a wider audience and what their needs might be, understand how yoga is perceived, how it can heal and how it cannot.

14.-Listen, listen and listen again.
When talking to students make sure that we are understanding exactly what it is that is being said.  Neve fear looking foolish for clarifying.  Listening is the art that a yoga teacher needs the most.

"Yoga beigins with listening"  Richard Freeman

15.-Keen observation while teaching classes
A dedication to the best standards of quality and professionalism. Noticing things in students yet not interfering unless approached.  Not feeling like we are the ones knowing it all, because we are not.

16.-Dressing the Part
Ensuring we use proper and adequate dress and presentation in every class and professional interaction.  Adequate, elegant (not necessarily expensive) dressing and grooming sends a message of professionalism, invites trust. Trust in turn invites opening and conversations.

17.-Remember it is a Practice
Keeping in mind that it is a practice, a journey. That cases as well as relationships will build up, more people will be met and the knowledge / experience will grow. Never take anything for granted. Always assume a humble attitude

18.-Praying
Praying in any form you understand to the forces of nature to give us the miracle to look at things as they are without the filter of how we would like them to be. Always. Daily.

19.- Real Presence in Honoring the Relationship to the Student
Honoring the student teacher relationship, making safety and respect a priority. Being present for what is happening.

This reminds me of a story told in the book "A New Earth",  in which Eckhart Tolle was in his apartment when suddenly one night a neighbour knocked loudly at his door at 11 PM.  She stormed in after he opened the door and spread papers on the floor, bills, court summons etc. She was in a state of panic, repeating that she would not be able to cope with it, that it was her end, that she would have to sell everything, go bankrupt.  Tolle looked at her with full attention, not judging, not offering opinions, not adding to the fire.  He just gave her space to have her moment, to feel her feelings.

After a few minutes she stopped, looked at him and said: this is not important at all isn't it? He just nodded no.  She picked her papers up, went back to her place and confessed the next morning to have had the best night sleep ever.

20.- Stay Grounded
For example having a friend or college by whom we can "check in" or "run a reality check" by.  Being aware of ego.  When we are not sure if it is Divine Power or our ego talking, then, stopping and running things by another professional. Always.

21.-Embracing Life, Embracing Death
Accepting that not all cases have cures even with the best referrals, with the best doctors, even with the best of everything, life is a cycle. Death is another. God bless them both.

22.-Exploring our own Emotional Body
Exploring our own concept of death, getting clear on how we see it and talking with other professionals teachers, friends to clarify our own feelings before we can be a beacon of support for those who may be dying, for example in the case of terminal diseases.

23.- Rain Making and Clear Guidelines
If the practice has a good foundation the cases will appear.  By then it is important to have detailed written guidelines as of how the therapy operates, what does it mean, how does it happen, what are the boundaries, how are the sessions conducted, what are the costs, who are the professionals in the network.  Aiming for full transparency.

24.- Connecting with the underworld.  
In her wonderful book, Carried by a Promise, Swami Radhananada, the successor of Radha and current president at the Yasodhara Ashram in British Columbia, talks about her work with dreams.  One of them, which she describes, includes her meeting someone named: Lady Able, she says:

"Lady Able tells me she comes from the greenness of the trees, the bushes, grass, moss and has a pleasant peaceful living growing with positive ideas... she is always growing and doing things but her energy is directed and powerful"

I can see in her connection with nature in the dream how she draws on her own intuition to continue on.  I believe Yoga Therapy bridges the scientific male-dominated field of medicine with the intuitive feminine.

For us yogis, being in touch with the unconscious and paying attention to the direction of our dreams as well as of life as symbolism is a gift.  Even though running reality checks always stands as an important step, trusting our own intuition must be an important part of our practice.

25.- Being able to let go
If you are a woman then I am sure this happened to you at least once: You say something in a meeting and then another person (often a man) says the same thing.  He gets recognition, you do not.

We must be able to trust that these situations are as they are.  To clarify: we may think that we KNOW that not drinking coffee is THE thing that will help someone heal, but if the receiver is not ready to receive such message we must give up the results, trust that there is a divine healing plan for each person, trust their own healing process and allow them the opportunity to listen when they are ready.  Of course this has nothing to do with male or female, but it is the case that people sometimes only want to hear certain things from certain people.

The Divine always has a way to let whoever is ready to listen hear a message.  She will send different messangers until one hits the listening spot.  Trusting the forces of Divine Intervention IS YOGA.

There is another side to this too, the side where intervertion might be inminent.  For example, in the HBO show "In Treatment", Paul, the psychiatrist, finds himself in front of a young woman with cancer who refuses to tell anyone that she is sick.  The show leads us to believe that for her chemotherapy is the only option at the late stage she is on.

Given these circumstances, Paul does everything in his power and even gets in the patients face. Furthermore he even goes as far as breaking some rules by taking her to chemotherapy himself on her first session.  Of course he does that after running a reality check by his own theraphist.

I am not advocating breaking rules, but I am advocating discrimination, being grounded and putting the student/client/patient first, and our egos aside.

26.- Keeping in check the attitude of 'Holier than thou':
I have seen examples in the blog sphere where people are abrasive, casting shadows on other's work, dismissing it negatively, making it all look very bad. This happens maybe via Facebook or Twitter or in boards.

We need to understand that the only way for communication to happen is to feel this anger we have before we make this remarks, connect with our Divine inspiration and ask for answers, tracet the anger, notice where it may be coming from, let it breath, pay attention and after consideration, deciding on what would be the best course of action, which in some cases (if not all) would very well be to just shut up.

27.- The Imminent Necessity to go Beyond our Desires and Wishes
When it comes to people wanting to heal, our wishes and desires need to be set aside.  A strong grounding and an ability to remain open to what is actually happening must take precedent. Always. Being clear is the only path to the best recommendations and suggestions.  We are not Gods, we have no power to heal, we can only get out of our own ways, and pray to be channels of lights. Let us be clear on that, the sooner the better.

28.-Our own practice as metaphor
Every time I get into the back bends I realize that I go further into the pose and understand it more, or learn new things about it just by doing it.  It is in the doing that the learning happens.

29.- Being Firm, Having the Guts
In order to say to someone something that they may not want to hear, there is a need for tremendous clarification, support from others on how to phrase and present things, thinking, reflection, putting it in the light, asking Divine Mother for help.  Then, when in conversation, strength compassion, and clarity are necessary.  Say what has to be said, ensure you prepared beforehand.

30.-Don't enter the psychic of another when uninvited
Right before her death, Radha advised her own group of trusted teachers:

"Don't enter the psychic of another with your insight. Keep it to yourself. Just ask questions and observe what comes back"

The advise was given over teaching, but I think it permeates a lot more than that.  If we are not helping a person find her own way, if we are imposing our own, how can healing or understanding ever happen?

31.- What Pattabhi Jois so succintly said about practice applies here too: do your practice and all is coming

32.- Never Rush!
Put quality ahead of quantity and speed.  If one area needs patience, space, and quality is healing.

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Yoga Therapy starts with the yogi, or with the yoga teacher, and with listening.

It involves a deep soul searching and a clarifying of what is the intention behind wanting to heal: Is it pride? Is it show-off? or is it sincere? Nothing wrong if it is any of those, it is just important to notice it. To be clear, and to not incurr into the field until we know in our hearts that the truth is we want to serve with no strings attached.

We must take responsibility in determining whether our timing is right.  If the purpose is ego gratifying, there is danger ahead.

When the foundation is clear, then the practice will blossom. Learning will happen, healing will happen.

May we all come from center, power, discrimination and peace.
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CONTACT ME: If you are interested in this work.  I am, I want to connect, I am open to it.

What would you add?
Do you see yoga therapy as an organic continuation of a yogi immersed in community and serving it? Or do you see it differently?



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Aug 24, 2011

Want to Be a Yoga Therapist? I Suggest We EARN the Title Rather Than Pay

I don't yet understand the full scope behind the International Association of Yoga Therapists, but what I gather, in a nutshell, is that they want to standardize practices.

Their mission consists of forming a professional organization that recognizes yoga as a respected form of therapy, invites all yoga teachers, researches, therapists and health-care practitioners that use yoga to join, and also provides information on cases/studies to the media.

I think this is a noble cause, and a great service to the community at large.  That is, provided that it does not end up creating so much structure that it would limit the profession.  

Why do I say this? because I have seen it happening before in other fields.  For example, take the amazing field of alternative psychotherapy (Depth Psychology or Jungian analysis). It is impossible to find a program that any mortal can attend without having to pay at least Two hundred thousand dollars! (when including tuition, loss of income by study time, and room and board). Yes there is financial aid, but should specialty schools really be THAT expensive?

In the board of directors of the IAYT, I see lots of Phds, MDs, MSW, and people with high degrees at the levels of decision making.  I don't know if you noticed but people who have PhDs, MDs, or high degrees tend to trust and prefer other people with the same qualifications.

This is one of the reasons why it is so hard to fit into the boxes that employees try to get their prospective employers on, for example, does one really need a college degree to be a paralegal? Absolutely No! (I worked in law firms for over 12 years and can tell you that)  but if an employer has a college degree, then he or she is more likely to want an employee to have one. It makes them feel safer, of the same keen.

Granted, this is my opinion, my observation of the world, you may disagree, but back to the IAYT, my fear is that it could turn out to create rules so that for anyone to do yoga therapy, he or she would have to go  into a university program that would charge 30K/year which, at least in the United States, where the cost of college has risen 10% higher than inflation since 1977, seems to be the standard for "specialty qualification trainings" (i.e. Master Degrees, PhDs, etc).

These college degrees in Yoga Thraphy do NOT yet exist,  but there have sprouted a few programs that already teach Yoga Therapy, as a separate certification.

One of these programs (blessed by the IAYT) will grant you certification after attending three two-week programs at 3000 dollars a pop, without counting expenses and room or board (A total of, say 12,000 dollars, plus another, at least 4000 for the pre-requisite 200 hour Yoga Teacher Trainig)

We are talking about almost 20,000 dollars!

Another program which also has three levels, and contains topics that do not vary that much from a regular YTT (other than field work as is done for, say, Masters of Social Work only in a much more reduced amount of hours) has a cost break-down that I cannot figure out, maybe is the Lyme disease that interfeers with my concentration. Their page is broken into so many little elements when it comes to tuition that I cannot, for the love of God, get to understand how much it would cost.  They also require a basic 200 hr YTT, by the way.

I am not adding links here because the intention is not animosity, but rather to propose another way to look at it:

Now of course, I  could be off here, it may very well be that I have not read all documentation in the IAYT and that I do not understand it all. Or, it could be that in a sneaky way that is the way the organization is headed. Towards college dregrees, and government regulations. Hey! we already have 15K+ certification courses. Could be.

THE NEED FOR FREEDOM IN YOGA

I agree with a recent article published in one of their magazines by Leslie Kaminoff about the need for freedom in yoga. He titled the article: "A Declaration of Independence for Yoga Educators".  He calls himself a yoga 'educator' because he does not want to deal with state regulated practices.  I am with him.

The article starts:
"Until a month ago, I was prepared to write a perspective piece for the International Journal of Yoga Therapy centering on the IAYT-sponsored Council of Schools that I attended this March in Los Angeles. Those well-organized and productive meetings produced a richly textured dialogue surrounding issues such as certification standards, accreditation and definitions of yoga therapy. Unfortunately, I can no longer write about those issues because it has become clear that dialogue can no longer exist for us as a community – it has been obliterated by the regulatory agencies of several states’ departments of education."

Hm.

I find the idea of Yoga Therapy very appealing because I believe in the healing power of yoga. I even inquired into A.G Mohan coming to NYC to offer one of his modules in therapy and believe that people like Ramaswami, who worked hand-in-hand with Krishnamacharya for years are great resources.

But from there to regulating and creating programs in which the States or regulatory bodies would get involved, I get a little un-easy.  Leslie continues:

"Government enforcement of licensing and Yoga cannot co-exist. Yoga is about freedom and Yoga is about relationship, and force destroys both. If we are not free to conduct our relationships free of interference by third parties, there can be no yoga."

Now, indulge me for a paragraph, look back at Krishnamacharya, think about the time when he left the footsteps of the Himalayan mountains with instructions from his teacher to go into the world, marry and teach yoga.  Do you think he felt ready?

Yoga Therapy, just like yoga teaching, takes time. This is why I always thought I would wait until I knew something before I would venture into teaching.  I had people asking me when I would start teaching as soon as I returned from my 200 hour TT and I looked at them in disbelief.  How can anyone teach what one has not experience? and for a loooooong time?

Now, of course there is nothing wrong with taking extra classes, in having a 'program' on yoga therapy, hey! I would love to, but that does not mean by any stretch of the imagination that a person coming out of such a program is a therapist, as much as it does not make for a yoga teacher when a person finishes a 200 hour one month training having done nothing before, and in some cases not even having a private daily practice.

Keeping it Real:

It is not realistic for a yoga teacher to pretend to be a doctor, psychologist, acupuncturist, oncologist, chiropractor, aromatherapist, massage therapist, etc, all at once. Let's remember:  yoga is yoga, and it has enough within its own science to provide work for at least 25 life-times.

Some of us will have the talent to become therapists, but I doubt that would happen trough 3 installments of training under standards that seem to be aiming for a college degree or that provide further teaching on anatomy and present a few case studies.

Let me make a confession, from my anatomy classes at my own YTT, I barely remember the psoas.

Yoga therapy will not be happen by a government dictating what a yoga teacher and student can and cannot do together.

Yoga Teraphy can only happen by a slow-build, dedicated practice, and opening to learn and a vocation or call.  See my post on the 32 suggestions on how to build a Yoga Therapy Practice that is effective.

But say we trust and eliminate all regulations, then how could we tell who is a real and who is a phony?  I can tell you how.  In this time and age of the Internet it is easy to find out information.  It is much easier to get referrals, to do homework.  To ask questions and see who is in the network of the teraphist? how serious does he take it? what cases has he worked on? Healing is changing.  We, patients, are taking more responsibility, doing our own research.

I feel that as yoga teachers it is our utmost responsibility to clearly understand where our knowledge ends, and to have a network of referrals that we personally trust, to follow up on cases, to get involved, learn, earn the title, not pay for it.

I could be wrong, but I feel a yoga therapist is made in a different way, coming up tomorrow, should energy be with me I will bring you my 32 or 23 or 13 ways...

Nothing wrong with having an association, but let us just realize that yoga therapy is a life long commitment done through networks of people.

How do you see it?  How is it different from your perspective?
What are your thoughts on Yoga Therapy?
Educate me please

32 Steps to a Slow-Build, Solid, and Thriving Yoga Teraphy Practice

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Aug 22, 2011

Lyme Disease: 10+ Days With No Practice

Remember when I was feeling tingling legs a week or so ago and how I blamed it on iron deficiency? It was  good guess, but when the next morning, right after that post, I collapsed at 8 in the morning and could not move for the rest of the day out of a deep and strong fatigue James suggested we visit the doctor the next morning. We did.

Blood tests were done together with all routine checks and: Nothing!

My main doctor, a woman who is very inclined towards alternative medicine called me and talked to me.  The test for Lymme (an epidemic in the area of the Hudson River where I live) had come negative.  She asked me question after question, she listened. I am blessed to have her and her team (including the original doctor that did the tests) as my doctors.

My symptoms are:

  • extreme fatigue (cannot do anything after 8 AM for pretty much the whole rest of the day). The fatigue I am talking about is not just being tired, it is one where the body gives up and moving it is an enterprise
  • Joint pain
  • A feeling as if the muscles were sucking into my bones on my right arm and leg (which I confused with restless leg syndrome)
  • Shortness of breath
  • Heart palpitations
  • Confusion
  • Forgetting things
  • Depression and bursts of crying
I did not get the usual 'bulls eye' target that people get when they are beaten by a tick, which is what causes the disease.  Ticks live in deers and they jump and latch onto people's legs, hair, arms.  If one finds such a thing in ones own body, it must  be removed carefully as it is not the tick but the venom that it releases into the blood stream that causes the disease.
Pictures are a bit too graphic, so a drawing may go easier on the eye


Because my blood test came so outstanding (I am probably the healthiest person I know), the doctor guessed that the symptoms are indicative of Lyme for two reasons 1) the epidemic proportions in this area and 2) It is unlikely to appear in blood tests up until 6 weeks from the time it was contracted.

And so she put me in antibiotics and there I am.  Still incapable of moving much, but very HAPPY that it is being treated earlier.  If the disease is not treated, meaning if people ignore the fatigue or the bulls-eye, it can cause paralysis, attack the nervous system, attack the heart and even cause death.

Yesterday, during my 'night-time-hour' window of relative energy I searched for "yoga and Lyme".

I can tell you the furthest thing from my mind right now is to get on the mat. I tried, I collapsed.  I tried again, it made things worst.  Pranayama, which was a suggestion from James feels yucky because of the shortness of breath, but I suppose it could help.

My fear with asana is that there is a poison within the body and doing asana could contribute to expand it throughout.  I could be wrong, so I went to the page of Dr. Migdow, a Kripalu doctor who is also a yogi, this is what he had to say:

Asana and Lyme:
Yoga and pranamaya can also be a wonderful support in recovering from Lyme disease, energizing and relaxing the body so that the immune system can work more effectively Postures like Cobra, Pigeon, Boat, Bow and Fish expose and open the chest, stimulating the thymus gland which aids in immune function.

Pranayama and Lyme:
Practicing 80 to 100 repetitions of kapalbhati every two or three hours brings more oxygen to the brain, compensating for decreased blood flow; alternative nostril kapalabhati integrates the two hemispheres of the rain. Within a week of practicing kapalabhati several times daily, many people feel much clearer mentally and more able to concentrate.

The key word in Dr Migdow's recommendations is "recovering". I mean, if only I could sit down!

I feel that this might be possible as the antibiotics begin to work and I regain some energy.  On the first day for example I think I would have vomited if I tried kapalabhati, or even a modest cobra pose.  Right now I feel the collapse coming along and sitting for pranayama feels sickening.  I may have to wait one more day or two, or three.  I have made peace with patience and it does not feel too bad, I am loving the respect and care I am giving my body.  I trust that good things will come out of it.

I haven not stopped taking any of the other supplements, which means that by the time I started on antibiotics my body and immune system was strong.  I continue to take:
  • Liquid vitamin B (for better absorption)
  • Maca a powder that comes from a Peruvian plant rich in iron
  • Vitamin D (my tests indicated I was low on it)
  • Vitamin C
  • Lots of water
  • Calcium and Magnesium
  • Centrum Women (a full vitamin complex)
  • Probiotics
  • Antibiotics
  • Huge doses of laughter from James.  What would I do without him?
There are lots of gifts that are coming out of all this too, of course and I will be writing about it.  

Last night I dreamed that I went to a new yoga studio where John was teaching Ashtanga and I was oh so ready to practice. Only thing, I did not have a mat, and nobody wanted to share!.  That is how much I miss it.  Do me a favor please, enjoy your practice for me! I will feel it.

The full article from Doctor Midgow here.


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Aug 21, 2011

SUNDAY NEW BLOG TIMES: Ooops! Guess I Am Not Quite A Supple Athlete

Asanis
And the Ashtanga animosity continues! now: elitists? really?, glad that this response came by from Grimmly and made me laugh. Also, I think the author who called ashtangis elitist changed his mind, he turned around in the comments, God bless him.

Are you insured as a yoga teacher?

Motion induced blindness. Stare at the center, know that the yellow dots are ALWAYS there. Fascinating.


Oh my goodness! It is keeping up with the Johnson's all over again, only this time through Facebook, while looking at friends pictures... I want that vacation too!

Interesting: Illustrated portraits by 80 exciting modern artists

And the Yoga Fest of Toronto is in full force!

VIDEO:
Are you just getting started with Ashtanga Yoga? Well, here is a very nice video on the sun salutations with Kino, enjoy! and salute that sun, it will bring you energy :-)



Last Sunday's New Blog Times: End of the Critique (or so I thought)


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Aug 19, 2011

Claudia's Teaching Schedule This Fall

Starting September of 2011 I will be teaching at the Cold Spring Living Room.
I am of course very excited about this new development and have created a page called: Teaching Schedule.  Below you can see the contents of that page, including suggestions given to make the most out of the students experience.

What do you think? Do you have a page for your students? What do you offer in it?

OPEN HOUSE:
Saturday September 10th:
10:00-10:30 AM FREE 1/2 Hr. INTRO CLASS with Claudia
11:30-11:45 AM FREE TALK AND DEMO ON USING THE NETI POT

ONGOING CLASSES
Starting on Thursday September 22nd
Evening class:   Thursdays 7:30 to 8:45 PM
Morning Class: Saturdays 10:00 to 11:15 AM

ABOUT THE CLASS:
We will go over the primary series of Ashtanga Yoga in a basic format, (up to navasana or the boat pose). We will focus on alignment and on learning to synchronize the breath and the movements, breaking a sweat, twisting the impurities away, regaining balance and toning those muscles.

The class ends with a short breathing exercise to center the mind and integrate all that was learned and a two minute meditation before a restful savasana.

The class is set for one hour and fifteen minutes to ensure we have enough time to go over a good amount of the series that brings health to the body yet it does not drain our energy.  You will leave feeling centered, balanced and relaxed while having gone through a healthy workout for the body.

May your progress on the path be joyful and successful!

HOW TO GET THE MOST OUT OF THE CLASS:

If you are enrolling in the class I am thrilled to have you join us! Please sign up at the Cold Spring Living room.

As a welcome present, the first 50 students will receive a free autographed copy of the book: 21 Things To Know Before Starting An Ashtanga Yoga Practice.  I wish all success to students on the yoga quest. These, below, are suggestions that will help you make the most out of your experience:

  • Remove your shoes at the door, we practice in our bare feet.
  • Never bring your cell phone into the studio, please leave it in your car
  • Come to practice with an empty stomach (at least 3 hours with no food - drinks are OK, stay hydrated)
  • Keep water bottles off the floor to prevent spills
  • Be early to class, entering late disrupts the flow and concentration.  If you only arrive a few minutes late take a breath and quiet down before entering the room, then place your mat slowly and quietly as you join the group
  • We suggest you bring your own mat as it is more hygienic
  • Refrain from wearing perfume
  • Wear comfortable clothing
  • If you have a health issue (illness, injury or medical condition) notify me before class
  • Be kind and loving to yourself by accepting where you are in the practice
  • Stay for the entire class. If you need to leave early notify the instructor beforehand and exit before the final relaxation
  • Remember that yoga's purpose is to go within and calm the mind, make this your time,  relax, and enjoy it!
  • Always respect your own body and never push.  Work with what is and enjoy.
Om, and peace to all.

Recommended reading: Teaching Yoga

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