I got nothing. Nothing to write. What can I say, no-thing, nutin comes this way, or throuhg me, and so, what do I do? I worry, I think you are not going to like me anymore, I worry that the blog is not a link to connect with others, there is not a drop of inspiration, and you will all abandon me, leave me to rotten in the blogsphere world. My life is over.
Ahh the drama!
Yeap, that is the mind for you. It believes fervently what it is telling me. It assumes I will too and let her run life with these wild patterns, vrittis, fluctuations of the mind.
I observe.
Good thing I know it not to be true, that just as I got nothing IT has nothing. None of what it can say is true, no thought I can construct is ever completely true.
Think about it. Anything in the back of your mind right now, that thought that is bothering you, can you be absolutely sure that it is true? Can you?
Like when I think I will never get to Kapotasana (that incredibly difficult pose of the intermediate series), can I absolutely be sure of that?
Well, I was very sure this morning, and then I get one of those adjustments in Lagu Vajrasana (the pose that comes right before kapotasana), one of "those" if you know what I mean, one of those where you come out not knowing what on earth just happened to you, but the teacher reassures you you were "only an inch away froom touching head to floor", which puts kapotasana back on the horizon and the earlier statement very much in the "not true" column.
So I'm just going to stop the worrying. Nothing or something. No matter what the mind says. It is likely, 99%, not true.
Ahh the drama!
Yeap, that is the mind for you. It believes fervently what it is telling me. It assumes I will too and let her run life with these wild patterns, vrittis, fluctuations of the mind.
I observe.
Good thing I know it not to be true, that just as I got nothing IT has nothing. None of what it can say is true, no thought I can construct is ever completely true.
Think about it. Anything in the back of your mind right now, that thought that is bothering you, can you be absolutely sure that it is true? Can you?
Like when I think I will never get to Kapotasana (that incredibly difficult pose of the intermediate series), can I absolutely be sure of that?
Well, I was very sure this morning, and then I get one of those adjustments in Lagu Vajrasana (the pose that comes right before kapotasana), one of "those" if you know what I mean, one of those where you come out not knowing what on earth just happened to you, but the teacher reassures you you were "only an inch away froom touching head to floor", which puts kapotasana back on the horizon and the earlier statement very much in the "not true" column.
So I'm just going to stop the worrying. Nothing or something. No matter what the mind says. It is likely, 99%, not true.
Great post! I often start off the same way and then, low and behold nothing becomes something. The crazy mind, always playing tricks. :)
ReplyDeleteQuite enjoying this not writing anything, quiet isn't it : )
ReplyDeleteI find it strange that we are our own enemy haha. And your posts about life have been really great lately. As selfish as it sounds, keep making everyone feel better!
ReplyDeleteThank you Claudia for remember me about the mind trap! Love your post
ReplyDeleteyes, the mind is a funny thing! Thanks Efrain
ReplyDeleteyes, very quiet, and I find I am liking it, more silence, more time to go within and to read, it's nice!
ReplyDeleteaha, I hear you!
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