Meditation = Detachment

I have been meditating for years now, I even keep a record of the hours in which I am involved in it. This year so far I have been on the cushion for 72 hours.

Over the past weekend I was feeling energized, but with a little anxiety which manifested as a certain uncomfortable vibration around the area of my stomach, and no matter what I did, the sensation would not go away.

That is how I came to try and see weather meditation would do it. So on Saturday, after the representative from PS&G left after fixing the dryer (thank you God), and the house was clean and in order and all was in harmony, I pulled the cushion from under the futon in the living room and sat down.

For the first 20 minutes I was just going over thoughts that refused to go away. They insisted on being interesting and playing loops on me. I watched them. Then, on minute 21 or so, a deep breath suddenly took me by surprise, it is that breath that happens only "after a while". Suddenly I became aware of the leafs in the tree outside my window and how intensily red they were, how the tall trees across the street seemed to dance to the wind, and how the light played with all the leafs falling slowly as if everything was a symphony of color and sound and.... And just like that, I was in the moment, I was meditating.

I repeated this operation in the evening and then again on Sunday morning and evening.

The most striking result I have noticed is that after the meditating the "attachment" to outcomes is what seems to disappear. Meditation helps me "detach", and suddenly all the things I was running around to get just don't seem that important any more.

For a Westerner type A personality like me, this is, well, plain weird, but I love the feeling. Highly recommend.